Hello.

   Cody came over saturday and spent the night. We mostly played .Hack:Infection all night. we were talking about y i couldnt keep a GF and he thinks its cuz im afraid of comitment but i got to thinking and its cuz i usally go out with a girl for the wrong reasons, which is kinda funny cuz i finally like a girl for the right reason and really like her and care and stuff but she wont go out with me. we wont go into that tho. my friend Jon died friday morning. i feel bad for his family and close friends. he was 15 and a pretty funny kid. last time i saw him was friday in the hall when he ran past me and called me the N word. We'll miss u Jon. well i dont really have ne thing else to say to im off.




                                                                                                               Wonderboy

well, 2day was pretty good. i have new inside joke. Pelvic Movement. hehehehehe u know who u r!
i got this game called .Hack:Infection. its pretty cool. its a good game so far just like the show. idk if u know what im talking about but ik Charlie and Cody do atleast. well sammy said i never talk about her in here so lets talk about her. she's my lil sis. she's short, clumsy and likes to fall down. j/k. i think.
Sammy and Cody may come over this weekend. that would be fun. ne way, i have nothing else to say. ttul bye.




                                                                                      Wonderboy

hey! Im back! wow.... so much has happened......

uhh.... where to start? i guess i'l start on the begining of winter break. i started to like kris again and i really like her. unfortunately i dont think she trusts me even tho she likes me too. i aksed her out and she said no, but its confuseing cuz the day be4 she was cuddleing and stuff and gave me a kiss the day be4 she said no. idk how she feels cuz she wont talk to me about it. it would really help if i knew what was wrong.yesterday i told her that i wished she was here with me and she said she did too but i dont understand her at the moment. maybe she's just ledding me on, maybe she does really like me but is afraid to go out sense it hasnt worked be4. idk, im really confused. ne way, i havnt talked to cody much in the past 4 days cuz he's busy talking to his GF and watching tv and reading and stuff thats more important then his brother. oh well. i made everyone really mad when i cut myself twice cuz i was really depressed when i did it. they were mad cuz they dont want me to be hurt and stuff but no more of that, only cowards try to kill them selves and im not a coward. well, i cant think of much more to say. im going to start writein in here again as much as i can. l8r.


                                                                                                       Wonderboy

Brother, You r my one true friend that i hope will never leave. I cant even count how many times u helped me with out hessitation. You saved my life so many times.  if it wasnt for ur help im sure that id be dead. that night u stayed over and feel asleep but i stayed up was the night i can remeber u truely saved me, i was going to hurt myself that night, but u where there, and becuz u were there and i thought of what it would be like to hurt u i didnt want to do it. i didnt want to hurt u, i didnt not do it becuz i didnt want to hurt myself.  idk what to say, i cant explain how much of a friend u mean to me. i hope u feel that same. to everyone, chairish ur friends.  iv learned so much, iv never had a friend that i truely trusted and cared about untill me and my brother met.  i wish i could pay u back for what uv done for me, but idk how. i thank u, with all my heart. thank you for being the person u r.



                                                                                       wonderboy



Ps. that was tearyful.

Pss. ppl who think im gay or somthing becuz of what i just said r just jealous. heartless.

yep, its 3:46 and im still not asleep. i have to "wake up" in and hour and 45 mins to go to school. damn im tierd.

   Man, its been a long time. Its 2:25 AM and i cant sleep. idk if its becuz school starts 2day or if its cuz i have alot of my mind. iv been really depressed lately..... idk whats wrong with me. im usally a happy person but something's gone wrong with me on the inside.  i get crazy late at night and stuff. i hate it. the only person that knows something is wrong is cody and when i try to talk to him when im in that "mood" i say stupid things and i hate it. he knows that i dont mean it. it gets so bad at some points that iv done things to myself that i try to stop some of my friends from doing to themselves.  im trying to fix things, i dont really know how but with the care i get from my friends im sure i'll be able to. i like this girl and she said she likes me too but also likes another guy. i told her to go with him and that she need not to worry about me. we broke up for such stupid reasons.  i hadnt been as happy with a girl as i was with her in a long time. im tierd but i cant sleep. maybe one day we will be 2gether again but she has a guy she likes so it probly wont be ne time soon. well i dont want to leave but i have to try to sleep.... goodnight.

the tree isnt there any more but if listen carefuly u can still hear the luaghter of a girl and a boy's childhood climbing it. The staff in the creek still stick's out of the water where a great fortress of imagination once stood. The pink house is still in the backyard, though rundown and aged, u can still see the love a great grandfather has for his great grand children. The streets r dusty and cracked but it can still remember the conversations and love a friend gave another.


 man.......do i miss those days.

its been a while sense i last wrote. its been great. well...... My gf and I broke up. thats not good so im ganna get that out of the way. we went to a party and i was kind of avoiding her cuz she was beall compliany and stuff and acting like this one girl. so she gets all mad and wants to break up. the way i look at it is that if she cant handle one night with out me around and off with my friends then it wouldnt have lasted long ne way. so now she's all depressed and stuff and mad (which idk y) so its kinda messed up.  so ne ways we'll talk about the fun stuff. uhhhhh...... i gave my friends GF a hicky. she made me do it!!!!! ok so maybe she didnt........ she used mind tricks on me..... damn those mind tricks!!! l8r that night i was sitting outside the band room with Andi and Anne and i took annes glowy thing and through it into the middle of the street. she got all sad and stuff to i ran out there and dodged all the carsd and stuff and made it back. i was like frogger. then, knowing me, i thought it was kinda fun running into a 8 lane street with tons of cars whizzing past me at 60-80 mph. so guess what!! i did it again but this time it went farther out into the street so it was harder.  there really othert things but i cant think of them cuz im too hyper. its awsome. well im ganna go.



                                                                     Wonderboy

I'v had a great week up untill about 10 mins ago. well sunday and monday we good days. nothing exciteing happened but they were good. yesterday we went to practice. Reid Timmy Adam and I found a box of tampons and were throughing them at eachother and walls. timmy pee'd on one and chased us. Cody and I were going to be partners in crime but he thinks we should be Arch nemisis' so i guess thats cool. we'll be able to fight and stuff. well the thing that happened 10 mins ago was that i was talking to my ex GF and she basicly told me that she thought of me as a anoth guy whe  we were going out. she said i reminded her of her EX and that i was so much like him. and its just yeah.... i feel kinda used cuz all the kisses and hugs and stuff that i thought wetre ment for me were really for another guy. i dditn think it'd bother me if she said that i reminded her of him but it did hurt. it hurt kinda bad. but thats all the past and those feels for eachother (well the feelings i had for her and the feels for her other guy) are gone now. oh well..... the past is the past and u cant change it. love u all.

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I just woke up. yeah so whats happened sense the last time iv writen? i cant remember what i said be4 and i dont feel like looking. so i'll start where i think it is. Steph and I going out now. I asked her out thursday night at practice. Anne is sad now cuz im going out with steph. I talked 2 her yesterday about it so i hope its all ok now. My little brother is sick. i hope he gets better. uhhhhh....  My parents have left for their aniversary and they'll be gone for a week. and! they left me with 300 dollars and a house all to myself. its great. well there isnt much else i can think of to write about.

Get well Cody.

Luv u steph

                         

                                                                                                                          WoNdErBoY